Totally random

I'm so tired. I could just fall asleep right now. But I won't. I leave tomorrow for Destin for my cousin's bachelorette party. Should be fun. I'll be back there not even two weeks later for our yearly vacation with friends. I think I'll just skip work during the month of May all together.

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I heard back from the thing I mentioned a few weeks ago. It was a job and I didn't get it. I won't go into it, but I was certainly disappointed. As it turns out, it's probably all for the best. More on that later.

Anxious

Gas was $3.45 a gallon at Wal-Mart this morning. I think I'm going to be sick.

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I love it when Texas makes national news because it's always about something like a polygamist colony that exists inside of a community where little girls are being married off at 12 years old and yet no one in the community of El Dorado wants to bother them or do anything about it because "they're not bothering anyone." Well, they're bothering me now. I feel so sorry for these women and children. If the children end up leaving, then they can be saved because they can be taught how to live in the outside world. But, the women are a different story. They won't know how to survive because they have lived their entire lives this way and know nothing else. Separation of church and state is not always a good thing, no matter what any constitutional scholar may say.

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I have such anxiety right now, it's unbelievable. I hate feeling this way.

Yay!

Today is Cody's birthday. We're going to dinner tonight at Fogo de Chao, this very large and expensive Brazilian steakhouse downtown. They just keep bringing you meat until you tell them not to. Right up his alley. Several people have told me not to eat anything today because I will eat so much tonight, but you know, I'm not the type of person who can hold out on eating. It's not good for you anyway. So I just ate lunch and I'm pretty full at the moment. Maybe I'll try really hard not to eat anything else for the rest of the day.

We leave tomorrow for Slidell. Yay! I get to see my friends! Yay again! I'm happy and totally not focused on work because I'm leaving early to get everything together for our trip. Yay!

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I'm super sore today. Hannah had us doing all kinds of things last night to "stretch our side body". I hurt, but in a good way. My legs are sore, too, for some reason.

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I'm waiting to hear back from someone about something. I should know this week and as soon as I know, I'll let you know. Could I be more vague? I just don't want to say, but does it really matter? Who reads this anyway?

Who needs a vacation?

I have such a busy spring and early summer! Here are my plans for the next few months:

Thursday, April 17: Cody's 32nd (yikes!) birthday; going to eat dinner at Fogo de Chao.

Friday, April 18 - Sunday, April 20: Wake up early Friday morning to drive to Slidell, LA for Nicki's 30th (yikes! again) birthday bash in south Louisiana, the most partying place I know. It's a long drive for a short visit, but will be well worth it because it means extra time with my friends.

Saturday, April 26: Crawfish boil at our house.

Thursday, May 1 - Sunday, May 4: On Thursday, fly to Destin for my cousin's bachelorette party.

Thursday, May 8 - Friday, May 9: Fly to Dallas for the Law School Foundation Board of Trustees meeting.

Tuesday, May 13 - Sunday, 18: Head to Destin yet again for our yearly vacation. I'm going to very tan. Yay!

Then, I get to rest until June 19 for my cousin's wedding in Atlanta on June 21.

Then, my birthday is July 11 and my parents will be in town for it and for a wedding that we'll be going to on July 12.

Whew!

I hope I can get some yoga and running in during this time.

Home

This morning I had an appointment that was much closer to my house than to my work. Originally, I had planned to go to yoga at Bodhi, which is very close to work, so when this appointment came up, I had to compromise. I got up after Cody left for work and I practiced at home. After about ten minutes, I realized that I was getting a better practice than I could have at the stuidio. Why? Because I was practicing my way. I've been using a lot of Anusara principles in my practice lately so that's basically what I did at home. I could have kept going but I had to take a shower. I had this really nice savasana and then went on about my day.

Maybe I should compromise more often.

Romanticism

It's been almost an entire week since I last posted. That's bad. The Law School's Reunion, which is my huge project, is next Saturday. It will finally have come and gone. That's good. Maybe my phone at work will quit ringing and I'll be able to stop answering questions that can easily be found on the website. I'm just ready for it to be over.

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My church is currently in a series of messages titled "Mad Love." It's about relationships, all kinds of relationships. Last week's message was about communication, which you find in all kinds of relationships. John, the pastor, said that communication is about much more than just words. It's also about body language which is why email is never, never the way to resolve a conflict. Very true.

Anyway, today's message was about flexibility. He focused on marriages and so I was constantly thinking about how Cody is much more flexible than I am...in our marriage, not in the hamstrings. Get it. Sorry, that was bad. Anyway, John asked us to rate on the following scale where our family was in terms of flexibility when we were growing up: A. Rigid; B. Somewhat Rigid; C. Flexible; D. Very Flexible; or E. Overly Flexible. I rated my family somewhere between B and C and Cody's somewhere between D and E.

So, while I could probably be a touch more flexible in our marriage, I think I have brought a structure to his life that wasn't necessarily there before. Not that he was some loose cannon, because he wasn't...at least not when we met. But he has a very laid-back attitude that I don't necessarily have, which is what he has brought to my life...and so much more.

I think we compliment each other nicely. Is our marriage perfect? Hell no. Actually, I dislike that word strongly. Perfect. It's annoying. So is the word normal. My mom throws that word around a lot. Anyway, we're not perfect and I'm certain we're not normal, but we are good together. I don't believe in soul mates. It's a nice idea, but a little romantic for me. I believe that Cody and I are together for a number of reasons but not because of destiny. We work at loving each other. Being in love is easy. Knowing how to love is the hard part. And I think we do an okay job of it.