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Once again, Christmas has come and gone. This year was different for me since I'm pregnant and unable to drink copious amounts of wine and bourbon. (Although I did have one glass of wine on Christmas Eve and one on Christmas. Shhhhh.) The reality that this will be my last Christmas without a child has sunk in and I have suddenly become aware that not only will I have a child, but the child will also have me. The idea that someone is ever ready to be a parent is ludicrous to me. How can you be really ready to take care of another human being for the next 18 years of your life? I'll be almost 50 by then. This entire experience is a journey that I can't wrap my head around entirely and I'm not sure if I ever will.

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I'm still in Monroe at my parents' house. Before we left, our hot water heater broke and leaked under our floors. Yesterday morning, Cody told me that he really felt like he needed to go back home and work on them. I have to stay because my friends are giving me a baby shower today so he took Phoebe, our dog, and left and my mom is taking me back to Austin on Monday. I miss him. I miss my dog, too. I think Sam, my parents' dog, misses Phoebe, too. But I do love being at my parents' house. I'm sure I've said this before, but I find a comfort in it that I can not put into words. I didn't really grow up in this house because we moved here when I was 15 and I only lived here off and on during college, but I get this feeling of coziness when I'm here. If the house weren't located in Monroe, LA, I'd buy it in a heart beat!

Checking up and in

To put it simply, I don't feel like blogging but it's been two weeks so I feel I must. I'm tired. Our hot water heater broke yesterday and leaked under our floors. We will need to replace a portion of them. Cody pulled up some of the flooring and the house is a mess right now. To top it all off, he's catering a Christmas party tonight, working tomorrow and Tuesday and then we leave for Louisiana for five days on Wednesday. It could have been much worse. I keep telling myself that.

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Yesterday, I went to my regular Saturday morning yoga class with Jenn at Yoga Yoga. She's been very helpful with modifications during my pregnancy. She wasn't teaching, instead Matt Borer was subbing for her. I have been wanting to take one of his classes for a while but I didn't realize the first time I would get to would be when I'm six months pregnant. It was hard, but definitely doable. Nothing too crazy. I enjoyed myself.

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I get to go to the doctor for my 24-week check up tomorrow. I'm really looking forward to getting on the scale.

Lonely existence exists again

Cody lost his job the week before Thanksgiving. He got "laid off" which is a strange term for a small, local restaurant, but it's the truth. They can parcel out his duties to other people without replacing him so he got one month's severance and was sent on his way. Shitty timing with the holidays and you know, that bun in my oven named Mia. Just to prove how good he is at his job, he received two really good job offers within two weeks of being let go. This week, he accepted a position as the head chef of an Italian restaurant called Corvina that will open in Round Rock in March. In the meantime, he is working at 219 West, a restaurant/bar in downtown Austin that is owned by the same guys who are opening Corvina.

He has been at Vespaio for the last six years, the last five of which he held a very cush schedule for a chef. He worked Mondays through Fridays from about 6:00 or 6:30 a.m. until he was finished. Sometimes that wasn't until 5:00 in the evening but often it was earlier. And regardless, he was home at night. This is no longer the case. It's 7:30 p.m. and I have yet to hear from him. He went in at 9:00 this morning. This sucks. And after Corvina opens, it will be even worse because he will be the head chef of a new restaurant and we will have a new baby in April. And yes, I will be going back to work so this will be hard for me for the first few months at least. And did I mention that Cody does all of the cooking in our household? I'm starving.

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Mia is moving around quite a bit in there. It feels really weird.